Women have strengths that amaze men... They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy. They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice. They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution. They go without so their family can have. But the one thing women forget.. is what they are worth.
This hits home with me. I had always been the type to not let a man get control of me, and what I mean by that is mind control. Whenever things would go wrong I wouldnt allow them to get the best of me I would just leave. Then I fell in love. I was in my past relationship for 5 1/2 years and I loved this man to death. We started off as the best of friends and we could tell eachother anything he always had my back as I did him. I get pregnant and we together mutually agreed to have this child. Thats when things began to become sour in the relationship. Girls would start calling the phone at late hours of the night. He always had his phone attached to him like it was apart of his body. He would lock the phone up so if I did decide to look at it I wouldnt be able to do so. His whole persauna changed. and he went from this happy go lucky guy I fell in love with to this egotistical S.O.B. We would constantly fight. It got to the point where it was beginning to become physical. As all this is going on.. im trying to perceive that I am happy and nothing is wrong to the outside world knowing at home was like living in hell. I was becoming this angry, bitter, sad, depressed being that was not me, and it was taking over me. I would ask myself everyday.. "Evoney why are you dealing with this" everyday I would look in the mirror and couldnt stand who I was becoming and what I was allowing to happen. I finally left and the day I walked out that door it was like the biggest boulder got lifted off my shoulders. I didn't want to continue to stay in a relationship that was toxic to me but also to my children. I didn't want them to see me crying and see how I was being treated, because I didn't want them to grow up and be like that. Gradually I got my confidence back up and was becoming the person I was known to be and that was a high spirited, happy person. I was worth so much more than what I receiving.
I have high expectations now and deserve so much and some. Us women love so hard and fight in what we believe in so much that we often forget exactly what we are worth. We are not going to stand to be disrespected, belittled, degraded, physically, emotionally, and mentally abused. We are going to stand with our heads up high and say I am worth so much more.
